THE INNER BRAT:
CONSIDERING THE PRIMAL ILLUSIONS
Adam Blatner, M.D.
November
18, 2007
The “inner
child” complex of images is really an aggregate of elements, including
positive qualities of spontaneity, vulnerability, sensuality,
exuberance, innocence, exuberance, imaginativeness, playfulness,
vitality, and so forth. Because of the vulnerability, though, people
often psychologically “amputate” (repress, split off, compartmentalize)
certain other of these qualities in order to maintain positive
relationships with significant others—usually parents, but also
teachers, ministers, or the peer group. This splitting leaves the
personality depleted, without access to certain sources of psychic
energy. Psychotherapy or healing often involves re-connecting the whole
self with these split-off parts.
A complicating
factor is the fact that many qualities in the mind overlap, and some of
these are more problematic—egocentric, with short-term time sense,
simplistic modes of thinking, vulnerable to being caught up in
illusions. Allowed free rein, these childish qualities create what I’ve
joking called “the inner brat” complex. Thus, there is child-like-ness,
expressing many positive qualities that we would do well to sustain and
develop throughout our lives; and child-ish-ness, expressing more
negative qualities that we would do well to modify or channel as part
of maturation. A realistic approach to healing includes helping people
redeem their child-like-ness while also learning to identify and
transform their child-ish-ness.
Actually, you
can’t “get rid” of these childish elements, these expressions of “the
inner brat,” but you can catch them and modify their influence. The
first step involves identifying these elements, and that can be helped
by considering a number of fundamental illusions that children
entertain. Unless they are recognized for what they are—illusions, not
reality!—, and replaced by more mature attitudes, they can drive a
number of immature patterns, neuroses, personality disorders, and so
forth. This paper will note some of these primary illusions and
consider their nature. When you’re aware of the nature of these as
temptations, you can better counter them. The illusions include:
1.
Life should be fair.
2.
Life shouldn’t be so difficult.
3.
Life shouldn’t be so complicated.
4.
I can have it all.
5.
My stuff is mine.
6.
I’m better than you.
7.
Why now instead of later?
7a. I want it now, I can’t wait till later.
8.
Either / or. One way or the other. No in-between.
9.
Strength is Violence
10. I
shouldn’t have to compromise, make trade-offs, pay for things
( ...and as one grows older, one encounters the following challenge (to
be discussed more in a separate paper):
What?! Change my consciousness?”
Development
These
complexes generally constellate as language becomes a tool not only for
communication with others, but also as a way to communicate in the
service of self-adjustment, to offer oneself solace, to foster
accommodations. This occurs around the ages of three to six, peaking
around age four to five. Around this time in life, according to Alfred
Adler, children come to some provisional “conclusions” about four
implicit questions: (1) Who am I? (2) Who are other people? (3) What is
the world and life about? and (4) In light of the answers to the
previous three questions, what is the best way to adapt to it all?
These decisions are also influenced by many intrinsic and extrinsic
factors, such as temperament, abilities, and family background, among
others.
The problem is
that this “schema” (using Piaget’s term but applying it also to the
psychodynamic sphere as well as the cognitive function) needs to be
revisited every few years. This is because the ability to think in more
complicated and discriminated ways—again Piaget and other cognitive and
developmental theories apply—allows children to move beyond their
primal illusions and the immature thinking with which they are applied.
Think of an
analogy to a computer. Our thoughts may be the software, but the way we
think would be equivalent to the operating system. Both need to be
periodically updated, and in truth, increasing amounts of consciousness
and explicit intentionality need to be used in doing this!
What many people
don’t appreciate is that this process of figuratively updating the
programs and systems, of maturing, goes on not just one reaches
adulthood, but throughout adulthood. Erik H. Erikson’s psychosocial
stages give a hint to the nature of this process, extending Piaget’s
insights. Erikson’s schema doesn’t fully describe how middle-aged
adults can and should think in more mature ways than young adults, and
how later-aged adults should also think in certain ways that are more
mature than middle-aged adults. There is not yet a consensus on such
details, but consider the obvious: More sophisticated thinking is
needed to cope with more complex jobs, marriage, parenting of young
children, parenting of older children, politics, developing a sense of
deeper meaning in life, and so forth. The thinking for each stage
requires greater discernment, recognizing more nuances, considering the
big picture, including a wider “circle of caring,” thinking about
longer-term goals and consequences, knowing about a wider range of
different options, and so forth.
We should
recognize that there are also forces operating that inhibit the process
of maturation. “Spoiling” children, in Adler’s concept of spoiling,
allows them to continue their illusions into later childhood and
perhaps beyond. The culture as a whole—politics, preachers, and
advertisers, especially—pander to childish illusions and desires, imply
that they are reasonable and should indeed be satisfied.
The most
powerful inhibition is an innate desire to sustain the best of both
worlds, to enjoy the prerogatives of childhood while partaking at the
same time of the privileges and status of adulthood. The mind is a
devious and amazingly clever monkey and can generate a wide range of
compromises and disguises that feed this dual desire. Part of this
process could be good—I want to encourage the redeeming of the
child-like qualities, because they can compensate for the increased
discipline involved in relinquishing the child-ish qualities. I want
you to have fun and enjoy life, but to find ways of doing it in a more
mature fashion.
Alas, the
culture and the mind often doesn’t know how to distinguish between
child-like and child-ish, and this can make trouble. One of the more
significant adjustive maneuvers is called “compensation.” Used wisely,
this can be most positive. You can’t always have what you want, and
sometimes you discover that if you get it you don’t really want it, or
it’s more of a problem than you’d bargained for. But you can find other
things that can often be more adaptive and fulfilling in the long
run—compensating in a good way. A not-so-good way, though, operates
like this: In a given complex role, at work, in a relationship, you may
play a number of sub-roles. In some of these role components you may be
competent, perhaps even highly skilled, outstanding. The self-deception
arises when you over-generalize your success and overlook the
possibility that there may be a certain number of role components at
which you are marginal or which remain underdeveloped or for which you
have no talent.
Part of maturity
involves knowing that you will have faults and weak points, and you are
not so prideful as to ignore the task of identifying them. Then you can
learn those skills in a remedial fashion, or perhaps even delegate
these role components to others. (One bit of wisdom I heard impressed
me: Find out what you do not do well and don’t do it.)
In other words,
there is a temptation to assume you are “mature enough.” Beginning in
the pre-teens, kids begin to think they know what they’re doing; this
illusion intensifies through adolescence. Indeed, they are becoming
more competent in a variety of ways! However, there is a corresponding
tendency to slip into denial about the ways they may lack competence.
Role theory
offers some help in this: I envision role theory being taught in high
school and college as part of a core curriculum on practical
psychology. If people know they aren’t just “smart” or “dumb” as an
all-or-nothing quality, they can begin to more realistically assess
their own range of strengths and weaknesses. Integrating the right
kinds of pride in achievement and humility without humiliation is part
of maturity.
Another part of
maturity, though, involves some awareness of and development of ways to
counter the primal illusions mentioned above. Let’s review them in
greater detail, then:
Life
Should Be Fair
It begins
with a confusion of how it is and how we want it to be. A number of
early adjustive maneuvers (in psychoanalysis they’re also called
“defense mechanisms”) operate this way: I want it to be so, so it is
so. It is too! Is too! Repetition, assertion, inner shouting: I’m not
small, I’m big! I’m not wrong, I’m right! I’m not weak, I’m
strong! The maneuvers called “identification with the aggressor,”
“undoing,” and others work this way.
Fair is a
word-concept complex used to cope with envy and jealousy. These
emotions were learned even before language, if one had the stress of
coping with the birth of a younger sibling and the de-throne-ment of
the sense of special-ness and access to attention of the only child.
Kids will use all sorts of reasonable concepts to their own purposes,
and the idea that things should be fair is one of these manipulations.
This concept embodies the adjustive maneuver of rationalization—the
delight of discovering something that makes parents give you more of
what you want.
Life
Shouldn’t Be So Difficult
Well,
kid, Life is Difficult! These words began Dr. Scott Peck’s best-selling
self-help book in the early 1980s, “The Road Less Traveled.” It is an
important statement because, although on one level it seems obvious,
many if not most people, deep down, have not really accepted this
truth! There remains a sense of oppression, as if “they” are making
“it” harder than it has to be for all sorts of mysterious and perverse
reasons. There must be an easier way.
To some degree,
a bit of this feeling can be sublimated—turned into something sublime,
positive—i.e., creative dissatisfaction. Much of human progress is due
to the working out of realistic ways to make life easier, inventions,
procedures, not having to “re-invent the wheel.”
On the other
hand, if this illusion is managed in a childish fashion, less mature
coping skills are employed: denial, passive-aggressiveness, avoidance,
sulking, excuse-making, blaming, devaluing (Why should I learn it? It’s
dumb!), and so forth. Since it becomes an unconscious given that life
should not rightly be so hard, there should also be some way that
“they” can make it easier, if they only would. “They” refers not only
to parents and teachers, but also “society,” “the government,” and even
God! The only problem is how to plead, manipulate, blame, sulk,
complain, and maybe even exaggerate the depth of despair and
victimhood, so that “they” will take pity and make life easier. (The
idea that “they” haven’t a clue how to make life easier is literally
inconceivable to the immature mind—which is why we need to periodically
make conscious efforts to become more mature and less bound by our
illusions!)
Life
Shouldn’t Be So Complicated
A
variation of difficulty, this illusion also takes the form of believing
that the important truths are simple; if one can identify them,
everything falls into place, gets easier. The idea that important
truths are indeed complicated and subtle is resisted, as is the truth
that when these truths are indeed understood, what happens is that
things become a little easier, but other things become more subtle and
complicated! Lots of adults haven’t acknowledged this, because it
implies a need to continue opening their minds, learning, and
experiencing the humility of the degree of their ignorance. It takes a
bit more maturity to realize that the complexity of nature and life
shouldn’t be taken personally—it really reflects our collective
ignorance. Also, a more constructive response to all this might be a
cultivation of the experience of wonder! Relax and enjoy it!
I mentioned,
though, how primal illusions are pandered to by politicians and others.
If only— that phrase, “if only” is big in primary illusion thinking—you
vote for candidate X, he’ll make it all better! It’s really simple. Get
rid of “them”! They might be government, business, unions, certain
minorities. Get rid of them and it’s simple. It really is, trust me! If
you listen to your inner childish feelings, you can feel the tug—Boy,
I’d love to believe that! It hurts my mind how complicated it is. Make
it be simple!
“You know, it
really is simple,” this voice says. “It’s the intellectuals who are to
blame; the academics, they’re trying to make it seem complicated just
so they can feel superior. It isn’t really complicated. They should
stop trying to cloud the picture. Just put it in simple terms!” Alas,
there is a germ of truth to many of these accusations. Often that’s all
it takes to feed a deep illusion. But it’s just a little germ; the
truth is that even if you simplify as much as you can, truth is still
pretty complicated, even for very smart people. The problem with this
illusion is that it persuades politicians, theologians, and others to
over-simplify, which distorts the real nature of the situation. When
people play to the illusion, it reinforces the illusion. If “they”
package it simple, dumb it down, the problem is that folks want more,
they want other things to be simple, too. “It’s not fair that they make
it so complicated, so difficult.”
I
Want It All
And why
not? Why can’t I have it all? It seems as if others get it all. Look at
the rich people! Look at the people on television! They have these
interesting and glamorous lives, exciting. They don’t have to work a
lot. When they do work, it’s a whole lot more fun than school and the
place I work. And the advertisers tell me I can have it all. If I were
only better, if I buy their product, that should do it. Getting things
will make me happy, fill that empty feeling deep inside.
I want to party
and have fun! That’s what’s fun, getting drunk, loaded, having sex,
getting high. Hooray. Others get away with it! It’s not fair that
“they” don’t let me have fun too. I want to see the world, I want to
have my own private jet! I want lots of sexual partners. I believe I
can have it all. I want a career and marriage, kids and status, fame
and fortune. The people on television have it, and I should be able to
have it too.
And when I’m
old, I feel let down, ripped off, because I didn’t really live enough,
I didn’t really make my mark. Is this all there is? What’s it all
about? What’s the meaning? There must be an answer! Who’s holding out
on me!?
A more mature
alternative releases this greedy-grasping. Buddhism is so right on for
this primal illusion. The skill of letting go needs to be learned from
mid-childhood on. You can’t have it all, and you can contain that
frustration. It may feel like you’ll die with frustration, but you can
handle it. You won’t believe me until you’ve done it a fair amount,
even made a bit of a habit of letting go. Guatama Buddha discovered you
don’t have to overdo letting go—that’s what he called “false
austerity.” There’s a middle way.
My
Stuff Is Mine
This is
tricky, because there are some realistic and positive elements mixed
in, certain natural tendencies that can be developed in a mature
fashion. There’s a place for private property, for its conscious use
and enjoyment. There’s a place for the idea of possession. It’s when it
becomes a basic attitude, over-generalized, applied unconsciously and
to all sorts of things, it becomes darker.
The illusions of
possession are also often mixed with a corresponding illusion of
scarcity. If I have it, you can’t have it. No sharing. Kids around the
age when this primal illusion gets going really struggle with this. It
also overlaps into the problems of best friends. If he’s my friend, how
come he seems to be enjoying playing with you right now more than his
wanting to play with me? (Forget that I was playing with someone else
just now. The point is he’s mine, and you can’t have him.)
Freud noted that
sometimes this spills over to the family situation and gets mixed with
sexuality, and called this the “Oedipal complex.” But that was his own
problem; where he was right is that kids are dealing with the problem
of having to relate to two or more other playmates at a time and this
can stoke the whole experience of what it means to possess. Associated
feelings include jealousy and betrayal, and there are many
mind-games and interpersonal manipulations and games that evolve around
these interactions.
Erich Fromm, a
psychoanalyst writing mainly in the 1940s through the early 1960s,
focused on the depth psychology of “having,” of what possession means
to people. Books are filled with the implications. The concept of
having and property involves too few words, for example. We don’t
differentiate between a person who owns a small farm and one who owns a
million acres of forest land. Why shouldn’t the latter be as free as
the former in doing what he wants? Chop down all the trees and sell
them if he wants—it’s his “property.” Why shouldn’t someone who owns
the only factory in the area exploit the workers as much as he’s
able—it’s a “free market,” isn’t it? Are there more subtle ways of
addressing these problems? Must it be “either-or?”
I’m
Better Than You
It’s
natural for kids to go through this stage, and really, all the others.
The challenge is to not get stuck, to continue to mature, to revise
these complexes. Kids think a bit all-or-nothing, and so they have to
be a winner if they’re not to feel like a loser.
Our culture
introduces a lot more competition a lot earlier than many other
cultures. Some anthropological checking it out can be instructive. So
grownups in Western culture feed this primal illusion, that winning,
being number one, is good, is necessary. We think that without this
edge kids won’t learn how to use effort. This is nonsense—children will
work at developing a skill for the intrinsic pleasure of mastery. You
don’t have to stoke this inclination.
There’s a more
mature way. Alfred Adler, again, has shown a way—he called it
“community feeling.” Let’s all of us win. You don’t have to be one-up
in order to have fun, and we can all have more fun together without so
much of an emphasis on one person being “the best.” In so many mature
situations in life, “better than” simply doesn’t work as a source of
positive socialization. (In some it still operates, granted; the point
here, though, is that the cultural media, the mainstream discourse, the
word isn’t out that competition and one-up-ness is a foolish and
illusory way to get a temporary high, a rush of “nyah nyah nyah,” and
denies the ugly and negative feelings this sub-system generates.)
It’s not just
competitiveness—and cheating—that gets stoked by this illusion, but
also bullying. We’re in, you’re out. We’re “exclusive,” as if that were
a good thing. “You don’t belong, get out. Why don’t you go back where
you came from!? I sure told him, didn’t I? Yeah, you told him.
You don’t believe me? I’ll go hit him, that’ll show you how brave and
strong I am. You’ll be impressed that I’m the strongest. I’ll prove how
tough I am, I’ll go shoot someone!” It all feeds the primary illusion,
the need to be better. Adler called it the drive for superiority, a
compensation for an inferiority complex, but it’s not real superiority
in the sense of being mature, capable; rather, it’s the illusion of
being better, and it’s a destructive one.
Again, there are
some roles in which the game of competition can be useful, the feeling
of striving, and so forth. We’re talking about allowing it to be an
unconscious guide to life, not just to certain consciously chosen
activities.
Why
Now Instead of Later?
Childish
thought patterns are poor at appreciating the constraints of time. If
I’m busy doing something I like, or if what you’re asking me to do (or
what I realize I need to do) seems onerous, I want to put it off. It’s
a form of denial. Procrastination is part of this.
A corollary
involves the opposite: I want it now, and it can’t wait till later!
That urgency is a mid-childhood continuation of what was experienced in
the early pre-toilet-training years. Maturation involves learning that
I can contain my desire, even let go its urgency. (Further maturation
involves learning to even let go of a given desire!)
For the problem
of procrastination, the antithesis is the appreciation and acceptance
of the functions of discipline and will. For the problem of urgency,
the antithesis is “containment.” Again, there are many seeming adults
who are remarkably competent in a number of roles, but who have
significant delays and immature residuals in other roles. Becoming
really great in some things does not confer expertise or maturity on
other things automatically, or by osmosis. You need to assess each role
in terms of the strengths and weaknesses of each role component.
Either-Or
Children
are just learning the language, the names of general categories, and
until they master these, it is only confusing to speak to them about
nuances, sub-types, and so forth. Rules need to be simple and clear.
Part of moral development is the shift to becoming aware in the teen
years that there are circumstances that require exceptions,
modifications, stretching of rules. (And, alas, some adults still
haven’t made this maturational advance in certain roles.) Either-or
thinking, then is necessary and normal in early-mid childhood. The
problem comes with becoming a bit fixed in this mode and not being
challenged to learn to attend to more complex problems. As one matures,
there are more experiences, more categories, and the growth of the idea
of sub-categories, or different types. In our changing and
multi-cultural postmodern world alternatives have increased
significantly.
Interestingly,
faced with stress, some people regress—a psychological dynamic that
refers to a reversion from more mature and differentiated thinking to
less mature, more rigid reaction patterns of thought and belief. This
fits with the aforementioned theme that life should be simple, and an
unwillingness to accept that it really isn’t. Operating in concert with
that simplistic desire, you’re either good or bad, for us or against
us, and so forth.
Interestingly,
much if not most of wisdom operates in a mid-range, with fewer
absolutes, and even fewer extreme positions. True maturity requires an
exercise of continuing responsibility, continuing discrimination,
comparing the needs of the moment with one’s most mature, most highly
discriminating values. This requires work, and it’s more tempting to
just give in to wanting to strike out, substitute angry irrationality
for constructive negotiation, and so forth.
Strength
is Violence
When
you’re a little kid, you don’t know how to negotiate, and diplomacy is
beyond your capabilities. You may have learned a few manners on the
surface, “please” and “thank you” kinds of phrases, but when push comes
to shove, well, those are the words---push and shove---that are the
operative determinants. A little bit older and you don’t have to use
violence; you can just threaten it! Kids also learn less overt forms of
intimidation: I won’t be your friend any more; the silent treatment;
dramatic turning away and playing with others; mean looks and glaring;
spreading untrue rumors; giving away secrets—the ways we can intimidate
and manipulate others increase significantly with the ingenuity of
mid-childhood. Ingenuity is not the same as maturity.
In our wider
culture, alas, the consumerist and political environment colludes with
these immature attitudes. We see violence as the major theme in movies
and on television, and war as a national policy. Diplomacy—which is the
actual form of more mature strength—cannot be appreciated by those
stuck in more immature mind-spaces. Anyone who has half-successfully
raised children through the teen years knows that diplomacy requires a
real refining of skills. (Raising teenagers is itself a major challenge
that can advance the maturity of their mid-adult parents.) But
emotionally, to many, negotiations, tact, diplomacy, not requiring the
other party to “lose face,” recognizing that a power struggle tends to
evoke even more resistance—such complex concepts seem like being
wishy-washy, a push-over. In truth, they are a greater strength, but
immature people don’t see it.
The problem, of
course, is that this widespread and unconscious attitude perpetuates
domestic, civil, and international violence, and it is a form of great
folly and immaturity—not strength. Yet the myth and illusions of
strength pervade the culture and are one of the most influential themes
for people in therapy and their personal growth.
Trade-Offs
The child
is used to being nutured, given to. The concept of earning things takes
a while to sink in, as does the concept of having to pay for things.
That one must share, give and take, take turns—these ideas also begin
to sink in, but for many, there is an imbalance: Their lives have too
much being given to—leading to a sense of entitlement, that they should
be given to—and too little demand for payment, for co-responsibility,
for conditions.
The confusion of
love and unconditional nurturance is part of this problem. We need to
learn that unconditional love should involve only part of the process
of rearing kids, not all of it. Also, this part should continue, but at
an ever-decreasing level. Balancing it needs to be conditional love—or,
not really love, but pride. I may care about you however immature and
incompetent you may be, but I am proud of you only when you have
achieved the next step in your potential, when you have striven,
exerted effort, discipline, good will, exhibited love, faith,
responsibility, and other positive character qualities.
Archetypally,
this may be recognized as mother-love and father-love, though in truth
parents of either gender should deliver a bit of both types. Kids need
more father-love the older they get, having their rewards be associated
with responsibility rather than need. There’s a continuing need for a
sort of a base-line caring and respect, more mother-love—no matter how
old the child grows. We all need both kinds as grown-ups, too, from our
social networks, but one type should not be allowed to overly dominate.
So, getting
this, knowing you need to learn to give as well as get, pay for what
you buy, keep a budget, and so forth—the point is that many young
adults still haven’t learned this deep down. They may acquiesce, but
deep in their heart that spoiled entitlement still broods resentment.
Recognizing
this, we need to watch for it, and when it rears up, not slap it down,
but acknowledge the resentment as childish, and gently re-direct it by
affirming a more mature way to cope with the demands of life.
Summary
Ten
primal illusions have been described. Perhaps you can suggest some
others—I’m open to your feedback and input. These are deep attitudes
that easily can continue to fester and drive subtly neurotic behavior.
I see them operating in many if not most adults of all ages, and worse,
I see advertisers, politicians, preachers, and others pandering to
these illusions in order to get more money and allegiance. For the
species as a whole to advance, we’re going to have to grow past these
illusions, to renounce them explicitly and relinquish them. We need to
learn that some ways of thinking are childish, and other ways are more
mature.
There is a
companion piece that takes this approach further, titled “What?! Change
my consciousness?” The point is that, yes, you and I need to change our
consciousness, and we need to do it periodically, and that’s what
growing up and meaningful living is about! It needs to be recognized as
a reality rather than an external imposition from some oppressive
authority. We need to learn to recognize that maturation involves many
changes, including addressing all those aforementioned illusions.
More, we need to
learn to put this process into a more dynamic-process kind of wider
belief system. For me, that is that humanity is only maybe 25% evolved,
and it is a deeply spiritual responsibility to continue to evolve. To
me, the image is that we are in spiritual kindergarten and someone has
given the kids real loaded guns to play with! Yikes! We need to develop
the psychological, social, moral, and spiritual maturity that
corresponds with our technological capacities. Identifying clearly the
temptations of regression to immature illusions and patterns of thought
can help counter their influence.
Comments? Email adam@blatner.com