Confabulations
18:
Human Psychic Development
Adam Blatner, Imagination-ologist
June 17, 2012
Ever-Expanding Mind
God is particles evolving into atoms into stars and galaxies into
mother-supernovae into suns into planets into life into more
complex forms of mind. Always expanding, diverging, integrating,
weaving and branching, finding out what else yet is possible! It's
a glorious dance and we are privileged and honored to be at the
nexus of several major transformations: We are part of the
universe that is becoming aware of itself, and with that awareness
we become aware of many corollaries:
- Oh what fools we have been, oh, how unconscious!
- Oh what fools we still are, but we are learning to be
compassionate with ourselves and each other.
- Whoa! We're all in this together and it seems that most of
us haven't yet recognized that fact!
- Hey, there's more here than meets the eye, that greets the
gross senses! We have tools that reveal worlds upon worlds smaller
and larger, faster and slower, more and less intense or forceful
in energy, and in other ways.
- Oh, my, there are so many different ways to play! Explore!
Celebrate! Enrich and enjoy! Discover! and all sorts of other good
verbs!
- (Recently) Uh-oh, there might even be other dimensions of
being. I don't know how to deal with that.
(But again, we haven't known
what to make of a good many frontiers of our consciousness, but
enough of these have been traveled so that the encounter with yet
another frontier shouldn't shake us up so much.)
Human Development
First of all, there's embryology, how we emerged from a cell to a
full organism. Get this straight: We don't know a millionth of how
this operates or why. We have just begun to plot out the what
happens and notice a few dynamic attractors, etc. How they
evolved? We give that over to an equally mysterious process we
call "evolution," which, like the forces of the "market" in the
realm of human economics, is imagined to be understandable by
human minds---eventually. That none of this will ever be fully
understandable---never---because human minds can't begin to
comprehend the depth and complexity that it expresses---that mind
is itself a perimeter activity of soul emerging into physical
space-time---well, that, too is inconceivable. Part of the fun is
that we are immersed in the illusion that even if we don't yet
know, that we could. That we could never know fully,
completely,---well, inconceivable. But again that's part of the
paradox of consciousness---it's almost impossible to conceive of
yet more consciousness.
Anyway, body-mind in terms of body development and ongoing
somato-psychic interactivity is one aspect, although it remains
still highly open-ended and mysterious. We know more about this
than the dimensions I'll mention next, but still pitifully little.
Then there's child development, which so far in this century has
focused on thing-handling, how a young mind makes a map of the
world, how it relates socially, needs, belongs. Again what's
important to note is that we are just beginning to discover this.
The field of play research has mushroomed mainly in the last
twenty years and it is nowhere near its peak. Play begins to fuzzy
boundaries, and part of our consciousness development has been
first the growing awareness of different dimensions of existences
that hadn't been known to us before, and then the studies of these
phenomena, which created departments in colleges and the illusions
of compartments, and then in the last fifty or so years the
increasing breakdown of the compartments, boundaries, and
discernment of the inter-disciplinary nature of knowledge, and
beyond, the inter-dependence of many seemingly diverse trends and
forces. So the whole process of psychological development becomes
quickly impossibly complex, unable to be grasped. Get this: This
is as it should be. It is indeed impossible to comprehend. The
problem is that we hold on to the illusion of grasping, knowing
for sure, definitely, the whole shebang, got it. And dissolving
that illusion is tricky, very deep. We will never ever cease to
discover yet more because that's God expanding consciousness for
you!
Plato's parable of the cave applies to everything, fundamental
reality: We perceive only the surface of things, and in dreams dip
slightly below the surface to glimpse at the complexity that seems
chaotic. But it isn't. It's just unfolding at levels of complexity
beyond the capacity of ordinary mind to grasp. And indeed, only
occasionally would we be able to use or integrate more, so even
what we are given to understand next is gradual (thank the Angels
for their compassion). Occasionally there's a slip up and the
human goes mad.
The point of all this is that it is time we own that we are
inconceivably complex: We expand into life and the cosmos on so
many fronts: Our daily challenges of growing up, older, parenting,
aging, dealing with health issues, grief, and so forth; making a
living in a changing world; trying to improve collective existence
(which is what politics is about); trying to understand the depths
of existence and our relationship to it (which is what
spirituality is about---and this, alas, too often gets subsumed
under the little minds of organizers and becomes 'religion.').
Meanwhile we are inventing, exploring, and, above all, playing. We
are ever-expanding in an accelerating fashion---the number and
variety of journals, magazines, movies, television shows, social
electronic computer-mediated media, photographs, and so forth has
accelerated the evolution of our species far beyond what our
philosophy and history can explain. That's part of the problem---a
kind of ever-increasing culture-lag.
So what if we now begin to use the Calabai-Yau illustrations,
models, images, to seek to appreciate the multi-dimensionality of
our lives? What if we allow each element---sports, news, hobbies,
family, clubs, politics, medical care, travel, internet,
etc.---and each category has innumerable and ever-expanding
sub-categories and overlaps with other categories---to be imagined
to be only one surface of an infinitely dynamic, multi-dimensional
process. Imagine one form of the Calabai-Yau manifold on the
accompanying webpage of Confabulations 20. (Or, also you can go to
Google and then type in Calabai-Yau and click up on "images" and
get some more examples!)
My Mandalas
I realized in writing this that my mandalas simply express the
shifting dynamics of my essential being. Yours too---I'm just a
bit more visually aware of it. And this again is only a visual
representative of what is in truth all possible senses---many of
them unimaginable to humans---and even we are only dimly aware of
sounds that only bats can hear, or smells that only dogs and other
far more sensitive animals can pick up, or sea animals that can
sense incredibly subtle electrical fields, or elephants who can
pick up sounds too low for our ears, etc. So there are many more
dimensions than we know. But just for convenience, let it be
two-dimensional, without color, pen-and-ink drawings---and these
too are pretty complex---and allow them in your imagination to
rotate and transform into yet other forms, and to be continually
transforming thus. And now shift and superimpose that image on
your reflecting on your own mind, your many roles you play in
life, and how they overlap. Defeat in one role affects your mood
in other roles. Tiredness, distraction, sexual attraction or
arousal, residual annoyance at something else, all these overlap
continuously with hundreds of other subtle fluctuations in states
and changes in your mind. It's all okay! Welcome to the human
race.
You mean others do this too? Others are at times brilliant---you
know the feeling of "Wow! I didn't know I could do that!" good
feeling that might be followed sooner or later by a "I can't
believe I was that dumb!" It's all in the flow of the mix. Don't
feel any need to come to a conclusion about how great or bad you
are---it's really not necessary and makes no difference. Open to
this being the game, a very, very, very complex game, of how you
will find yourself, your way of helping the world a better place,
sometimes just your coping with the burdens of being alive.
God's Game
Part of the fun here is to worship God simply by imagining that
God isn't up there judging, he's down here as you, discovering how
to play these many games simultaneously. And God is everyone else,
too, and everything else, and if you think about it---it's a
neo-Spinozan pantheistic theology---it is way too much for any
person's brain. But that's okay because God is up to the task of
being "everything"---it's the ultimate ultimat-osity of
ultimacy---truly worthy of only God--- and it's none of your
business to try to grasp on to understanding all of this. If you
can let go into understanding how it is you can never understand
fully, well, that's a beginning.
These are facilitated by the elfairy equivalent of
a molecular biological catalyst in the Earth-biosphere.
Magic exists and operates rather routinely in this other
dimension.
The elfairy of early mandala-formation is on the lower right of
the four frames to the far left, and some of its simpler creations
are shown in various stages of complexi